US Military and their promises


My little brother is leaving for the army today. He joined because their was a promise that his legacy of his children will be taken care of. I hope they honor that promise of stability and then some. My brother you is choosing the defend the country should never have to need for anything.


My Dearest Mother…


My Dearest Mother,

You are the sweetest, most confusing woman I have come to know but I still love you so…

Your ways seem so difficult or I just don’t perceive them correctly. Although things haven’t been handled with care like I hoped and pray the respect is still there.
You have gone through a lot of changes, challenges and experienced more than most could bear…

But lets prepare to fix what seems withered before it brakes, do what is needed and whatever it takes.

To keep love in our hearts and our minds from the what’s dark and twisted by being optimistic and yet realistic in this crazy world gone completely ballistic…

I Love you MOM!

mother and son!

mother and son!

Bound to the Pillow.


Bound to the Pillow.

For those that don’t know me personally I am going to open up even more this post.

I lost my brother last Sept, on the 22nd. That hit me really hard seeing as I had not taken my newborn son to see his uncle and he was born on 9th prior.

This weighed heavy on me. I thank God for my son, his existence has helped me remain sane. I married his mother a day before her birthday to make sure she knew how much I needed her and my son in my life. She and I are working through things like I always dreamed a good relationship would go. it really is a slice of heaven to belong and feel needed and appreciated.

I will always remember my eldest Brother…. Rest in Peace Xaibian Smith.