The children don’t want to be…


I have noticed a shift in the direction of positive progress.
I have heard some ridiculous things in my lifetime, but this takes the cake.

I was offering a book to a young adult called “the odyssey”
They stated, “I don’t want that!” Jokingly I asked “Why not?!”, could they not read?!

Her response was, ” I don’t find it interesting.”

Me: how do you know it’s not?

Her: I would of heard about it.

Me: your going to have a hard time in life if you only find things interesting only if you have heard about them from a specific source, because your hearing about this book from me and I say its good and haven’t told a hint of what it is about!

Am I wrong for being disappointed in the lack of interest?


the World as we Know it (Ending Soon)


I have in the last 5-7 years seen the world quickly become unraveled and less secure, unruly and unsettled.

I have rules bent, broken, and regarded as a hinder rather than what it was put in place to be remembered. The rules that protect us and the Natural Order of things are almost null and void. The fears of past things are now coming back into full swing. Diseases, religions, laws, and lives are all out of order and are reeking havoc on today’s society and their opinions and even their opinion are not of value because languages and terms have been overly used and modified by different groups and in different areas this all means something different.

I am going to break down different areas;

Society: Normality is now considered a fashion fatality and everybody is striving to fit into the “in” crowd. as human beings we want to be oppressed and restricted just to fight against the odds as a majority. because you haven’t really lived unless you involved yourself in some everyday activities that scream ” I’m accepted by my peers after years of familiarization” Religion and Sexuality battle with them selves and between each other underneath the laws that are being modified to pacify the growing will to “be different’ it is painfully obvious that history will repeat itself and there will be a time when everybody will no longer accept or understanding of what’s around them and desire what’s outside of their radius of reach and demand that it is made available to them for the lack of belonging because a longing emotion that starves our curiosity to make us dangerous.

Religion: they fight for the rights to the one true path of enlightenment and the longing for higher recognition and judgment of a higher power. it really comes down to the idea that “everybody thinks they know the answer” and the proof is left up to those that are in favor or oppose the ideas. they condemn what is said to be right or wrong and tie closely to natural law governed by an unnamed higher power.

it kind of just translates to various groups that ridicule and constantly try to recruit non-believers to mentally bond with their beliefs and distract them from realities and grief.

they have a rule or an idea on most humanly emotional, physical, and mental activity and wants it to be controlled so that chaos isn’t invited to your lives and promote the calm of not stressing over things out of direct control to the believer.


A Strong and prominent human bodily function that closely ties to pleasure and the necessity of reproduction and a lot argues that there is a separation between preference and reproduction. Other don’t see the line and gauges the pleasure as a direct disregard for natural law and order and there should always be a balance. homo/bi/trans Sexual beings are taking the attention of the media seeking acceptance and an amended thought process be encouraged through out the world.


My Perception:

I am who I am based on experiences, DNA, atmosphere and memories and thought patterns. what I say doesn’t not hold any ground because I am just one person and 99% of the earth’s population doesn’t even know I exist. I am fine with this and I don’t feel the need to be accepted or nor do I need what  Society, Religion, Law and Sexuality offers as a lifestyle. I know what I like, what things are in place for and why things are the way they are and that is the only understanding I will ever need in this life.

My Dearest Mother…


My Dearest Mother,

You are the sweetest, most confusing woman I have come to know but I still love you so…

Your ways seem so difficult or I just don’t perceive them correctly. Although things haven’t been handled with care like I hoped and pray the respect is still there.
You have gone through a lot of changes, challenges and experienced more than most could bear…

But lets prepare to fix what seems withered before it brakes, do what is needed and whatever it takes.

To keep love in our hearts and our minds from the what’s dark and twisted by being optimistic and yet realistic in this crazy world gone completely ballistic…

I Love you MOM!

mother and son!

mother and son!

Back up plan.


So it has been revealed to me that this girl i had actually liked had me around strictly as a fail safe. A back up man in so many words. It was easy to tell when it happened to be likely the back up wasn’t needed. She stopped answering as quickly as she was known for doing.

I really wanted to say a lot of mean Things. You don’t kiss a guy you don’t plan to keep around. She could have at least opted for a goodbye one night stand event. But she seems not even able to have that much cognitive ability. so anticipating this i had courted seven potential women online on a dating site. With the desire not to be made a fool of, i have their numbers, names and pictures by the time my work shift ended. Golden rule on the search for true love. Don’t trust anyone you don’t love already ;-).



So I have been dating…A LOT of different women. I have come to the conclusion there isn’t anyone for me. nobody believes in the idea unconditional. I swear I’m always meeting someone crazy, selfish, stupid, bipolar, inconsiderate or arrogant.

I had nothing to do today so i figure i wast time and go deodorant shopping, I brought three bars (I hate running out at the wrong moment)

got to work two hours early and dropped my phone. I have a job that I cant do with out the information i look on my phone for. smh so the girl I thought was super special is probably just special ed.   tired of being let down. I deserve some one with a decent metal capacity. I deserve friends who wish to hang with me without gauging my honor by how many girls i defend them against and how often I can drive them places. I don’t deserved to be treated like I’m broken and im not useful when the fun is happening. I don’t deserve to play phone tag with a man of God for $1000 computer i agreed to let him make payments on. 

I don’t deserve not seeing a child someone claims is mine but reveal lies to me constantly because I try to be generous to people who apparently don’t know i used to have a vicious anger problem i keep trying to suppress.

I swear I’m too nice its only a matter of time before I go off and people start looking how they really are, stupid, dumb, and broke as all hell!